March 23, 2017

So I got my final paycheck from my old job and I was able to buy my wedding dress and pay all our bills. And I got my love his ring. Now we can focus on getting our new home. 

We went and looked at the house we liked online but the bottom floor has kinda skewed our opinion. The upper floor is perfect and looks like it has just recently been remodeled but the bottom looks like they started a remodel and gave up. You can’t even access it from the top. You have to go to a side door. 

It’s rather cheap only 49,900 but we’d have to put so much just in the bottom. That doesn’t include anything extra we find wrong with it. It kinda broke my heart. We have other houses we’re looking at but we loved the location and the land of that one. Now I don’t know what to do with myself 

March 21st, 2017

So this not working is actually pretty nice. I get to relax and take care of our home, have a hot meal on the table when my love comes home, and I get to try different recipes all day. Like yesterday I got my nails done and then I spent the day baking. I made so many cookies I probably still smell like a bakery.

Don’t get me wrong I still would like some form of employment but the look on my loves face when he comes home and I have dinner on the table is devine. He jokes that I can just be his little house wife, but I’m pretty sure that’s what he really wants. Like I said he doesn’t let me pay for anything.

Really being a housewife wouldn’t be so bad if it wasn’t just me at home all day, but we have a very slim chance of ever children.  We’ve been passively trying, you know if we get pregnant great but if not that’s okay. With my medical conditions if we were to really try we’d just be disappointed over and over again. This way we’re prepared for anything and we keep our hopes under control.

If we were to have children I don’t think I’d be too worried about working. But it’s just me while he’s at work and I get bored and lonely. I keep our home clean and organized and there’s only so much laundry. I can only do so much before I run out of tasks. And like I said it’s just me; I clean house and keep it clean.

I just need something to keep me busy during the day.

March 20th, 2017

Well I’m 90% sure I didn’t get the job I was hoping for which is okay. My love says I don’t have to work he makes enough for the both of us, but I want to work. I want to contribute. He doesn’t understand, I don’t think. I need to work. I need to do more than keep house. 

Don’t get me wrong I love cooking and cleaning and all that 1950s housewife shit. I do. But I’ve been supporting myself since I was 18 it’s hard going from that to letting him pay for everything. One of the few fights we get in is over money and it’s because he won’t let me pay for anything. He hates when  I buy him a pack of cigarettes for crying out loud. 

But I digress. Maybe I’ll start selling Avon or pampered chef or something. That way we’ll both get what we want. I’ll have something of a job and he’ll have me home. But I don’t know.  Those always seemed like too much work for too little compensation. 

If anyone is reading this, what do you suggest?

March 18th, 2017

So I recently quit my job at a nursing home. I loved what I did and I loved my residents but there comes a point where the bullshit and drama just become too much and you have to ask yourself if being miserable is worth it. And I got way passed that point. When you work for a corporation you realize how much upper management cares about the people in their care verses how much they care about money.

I’m not going to go into details of exactly why I left all that matters now is that I’m much happier even though I have gads of spare time while my love is at work and you can only do so much laundry and house work before you lose your mind. So I decided to blog. If for no other reason than to have something to do. I haven’t quite decided what I’ll post about.

I mean I don’t have any kids so I can’t make a mommy blog. I don’t go out much so it won’t be a travel blog. I like makeup and clothes but not enough to advise others. I knit but I freehand mostly and I suck at explaining/teaching. We’ll just have to see where this goes. Until I get to a point where I know what I want this to go I’m just going to wing it.